Ranting and Raving!

Its just been a day for me to have a pity party. I look around at people and see what they have and just want it so much. I see couples holding hands and looking so in love, I see people with little children and I want both of those things. I see people who are not good people and do not care for their kids and I wonder why they have them and I do not. I see people who make bad choices and mess up their lives yet they are still married!. All I want or have ever wanted is to be married, be a wife and mother. I know I am not perfect and maybe I should be doing something different in my life but why is it that others get this and I can not have it. I know I am not the only one who feels that way and yeah I am only 25 but that's not my point today. I just want this one thing, I do not need to be rich or have every little thing anyone could ever ask for all I want is a family of my own.

You know I think that and then I can not help but think of what I do have and what others are going through that I am blessed that I do not have to go through. I have a great job, a wonderful family and super friends.

I have a friend who did get married had a set of twins one of which spent a lot of time in the hospital and then her husband left her to raise them on her own. I am blessed that I do not have that to deal with.
I have two cousins who had babies and lost them. They are good people and it has been a hard thing. I am blessed that I do not have that to deal with. (my heart goes out to them)
I have a friend who got married and shortly there after found out she had cancer. She is a good person and for now the cancer is in remission and she is expecting her first baby. But still I am blessed not to have that (cancer) to deal with.
I have a neighbor who got married had two kids and when she was expecting her third they found out her oldest was autistic. Her husband left her, he couldn't handle it. She is not remarried to a wonderful man who had two kids and they now have one together (that makes 6) But I am blessed that I have not had that to deal with.
I have other friends that have had trials that I feel blessed that I did not have those to deal with.

I am not saying I have not had trials or that my feelings are not important because I have had trials and I will continue to long to be and wife and mother.

I guess we all have days when we feel like we just want to crawl in a hole somewhere until things go the way we want but I guess I just need to tell myself to look around and see what I do have and what I am blessed that I do not have to deal with.

Anyway that's the end of my ranting and raving!

Stupid Rabbit!

Definetly not a good mom! All eight babies died. And I for sure am not a good mother rabbit I tried to bottle feed three of them and they all died. Kind of crappy. Oh well such is life!

Bunnies!

My Rabbit, Cuddle Bunny, had 8 babies last night. Way excited.

More Alpaca Pictures!

Miss Danae is the biggest of our girls. She will have a baby in September! We are so excited!

This is Dominic he is gorgeous. I will get a bigger picture of him on here later!

OK so these are not alpacas! Just Aunt Heather, Colby Mommy (Angela) and Chase being crazy!

Aren't they cute! Cooper (back) and Woody (front) are two of our first four alpacas. In the back ground you can see Zoom-Zoom also one of the first four. Primo is the other of the Fab Four. He is the one in the picture with me at the first of my last post!

More Woody, Cooper and Primo (At least his back!)

I will continue to post more pictures daily. I hope you enjoy looking at these funny creatures as much as we do. They are so fun.

PICTURES!

Here are finally some random pictures in no particular order!

I was reluctant to post this picture but oh well here it is. This is me and my nephew Colby With my favorite alpaca Primo. (I will post more alpaca pictures later!)

Silly Daddy thinks people are scared of him. Yeah he wishes!

My beautiful Mom!

My one and only brother James with the BB gun! This is a rare site, normally its his bow, which we are pretty sure is attached and would take surgery to remove!

My sister Angela, Her husband Clay and their little cowboys Colby and Chase!

This is Heidi and a friend of hers. She is growing up!

Can you believe this is Heather. Isn't she pretty.(she always was but she has changed alot since high school) My lovely sister!

These are my crazy nephews that I love very much!

This is our ham Chase! He is a very animated child.

This is cheesy little Colby! (Put them together and you get ham and cheese!)

This is my little Bug! She looks a little crazy in this picture I will have to add different pictures later!

And FINALLY this is Karrie and our little Norman!

Hope you enjoyed there will be more to come!

Little Baby Alpaca!

Well hopefully I will get pictures on here tonight. My Moms alpaca finally had her baby last Saturday so we were able to go get them on Monday. He is so Cute now if we could only decide on a name. Also this weekend I bought another horse. His name is Charlie. Hopefully my post tonight will be full of pictures. Got to go for now!

ABOUT TIME!

I figured it was about time I posted again. Not that many people read my blog but oh well. Life is good! I count my blessings daily that I have a job, loving family, friends and the Gospel in my life. I think about all of those things and where I would be without them and it makes me crazy. I have a friend whose family lives far away and they do not visit often because she joined the church and they are slightly anti-LDS. She says they still love her but its not the same. They do not support her lifestyle or the decisions shes making in how and where to raise her family. How hard it must be for her. I think about all those who right now, by no fault of their own, have found themselves out of work. That makes we thankful that I have a stead job for a good company. Then there are people who have no friends, either by choice or circumstance. I feel for those people and any time I see one I try to befriend them. You learn so much from friends that not having any you miss out on so many experiences. Its true that family is the most important relationship but friends are also important. Then I think of people who do not have the knowledge of the Gospel. In 3 days it will mark 6 years since my Grandpa died. If I did not know that I would see him again and that this life is not the end I would go crazy. I love him so much and if I thought death was the end it would hurt so much worse. Do not get me wrong I miss my Grandpa but I think knowing what I know makes it easier than if I didn't know the truth. True, I do not know what it would feel like if I did know know the truth but I can imagine and I do not want to go there. I am so thankful for all my blessings.

Anyway enough of the deep thoughts. (Maybe not so deep but its as deep as I go!) Life is good. I am waiting on a Rabbit to have babies hopefully she will have them by the time I get home today. We are also waiting for one of the female alpaca's my Mom bought to have her baby. We can not go get them until the baby is a week old so we are trying to wait patiently but she is three and a half weeks late. Now Alpacas can have their babies either 30 days early or 30 days late so she only has a few days left. Hopefully she will have her baby today. We keep teasing my Mom that the baby is not coming because its a boy and she wants it to be a girl. So she has stopped calling it a she in hopes that it will come! Girls are better for business but the boys are cute to.

Well enough for today. I will post pictures of our alpacas as soon as I get my laptop fixed. By the way all friends and family are welcome to come check them out in person. We would love to show them off to you. Or just come over for a visit we like that to.